hey there mapa

what did i do to you
my dear little one.

i had a full day
working meaningless paid job as a sitting admin lady
then i brought a friend to time square
where we promised to explore the world
together

i had Plain White's with me
when we traveled in Chicago,
where i slept by your side first time
excited but smoothly.
in this windy city
i didn't hide anything
cos the wind blow away the dark clouds in my mind
which shadowed me up for dad's away
you shined me
in such a smart way that i shined...

i dont know why it happened like this
thousands miles away
four months away
I did everything for curiosity
I tried every day for imagination
I experienced every night for inner peace
I made every moment for love.

People say the poor lover
will turn to alcohol
for at least half a year.

I don't know
I just feel pains
thinking you would be away

Sometimes I prefer you can simply
turned if all off.
turn off your hugs
your lips
your eyes
your breath
your tears
your anger
your impatience
your stupid cuteness
your calmness
your pains

I dont know how to stay cool
I believe life will be beautiful still
but I feel so bad when I'm free
and I'm thinking of the moments
with you
when we were together
hey there,mapa.

will people living in the heaven watching us
when we missing them
when we head up for a slice of hope?

will you living in the city thinking of me
when I walking around your school
when I smiling for a piece of strength.