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1. Long Shadow Falls
The long shadows fall
Why can't we all just walk away



2.All The Pretty Little Horsies
Hush-a-bye
Don't You cry
Go to sleepy little baby
Go to sleepy little baby
When You wake
You shall have
All the pretty little horsies
All the pretty little horsies

Blacks and bays
Dapples and greys
All the pretty little horsies

Way down yonder
In the meadow
Lies a poor little lamby
Bees and butterflies
Flitting round his eyes
Poor little thing is crying
"Mammy"

Go to sleep
Don't you cry
Rest Your head upon the clover
Rest Your head upon the clover
In Your dreams
You shall ride
While Your Mammy's watching over

Blacks and bays
Dapples and greys
All the pretty little horsies

All the pretty little horsies
All the pretty little horsies
All the pretty little horsies


3.Calling For Vanished Faces
If then I meet you along the way
Where the laurel trees surround us on every side
If then in a small place i stand alone
And turn my head and you smile there
If then I reach out and touch your form
Where all your silences and your chaos meets
Where everything joins and parts

If I may once clutch your heart
And pull its beauty to my face
There the bloodfall falls red river cracks
Behind me lies black mother mountain
The goats wheel round
Great sign of lust
How much I wanted you
And oh Christ how much more I want you now
The great pain
The great misery
To look and look
To look and look and look
And look and find
Nihil


4.The Inmost Night
And I drown a little more every day
The wind blows so slowly now
The trees are dry dead
Walls to me they cannot hold back the storm any longer
It will bread around us first
If there's a god
If there's a God
When I stand there at the piled bloodcamp
Again I flick open the inner eye
If you too open your eyes you shall see
The entire sky filled with weeping angels
The entire heaven filled with weeping angels
And the centralsun and sum of all
God too weeping

We shall be judged

So anyway so your garden is most fullgreen
And the many birds alight on its budding branches
And anyway the lambs gambol
And the children sing yours perhaps
Or mine God
And anyway
So anyway we fall beneath the waves
And hope to be remembered anyway
Anyway the bluebirds wait over the white cliffs of Dover
So anyway they to fall
The grass dies the moss goes the chalk chips away
Then below that the rocks grain away
This is the sound of the earth dying so nothing new
So anyway you may wait under a tree
Or at the foot of a hill
Anyway


5.The Carnival Is Dead And Gone
Dear sir dear lady
This carnival is dead and gone
And never anyway alas this party never yet began
The chairs and tables dust of dust
Yes verydust of veryrust of verymust and farewelltrust
I thought I saw you in the crowd dear heart
You turned away from me and dissolved into light
The broken lights and faded buntings
Call to us all the inmost light
And don't glare wide your eyes in wonder
They will flick back inside your mind
And on the bonescreen of your skull
They watch no musical salutes
So thoroughly modern now we are
But the last reel of all time
The inmost night
Its frames are glared and slow and out of focus
Valentino Vallee Moss all dead!
The inmost night
And the little bells go tinkle
And your eyes begin to twinkle
And the joints and sinews crack
It's the expansion of your mind death
Death
Death
Death
The inmost night
The cat's face glares from shiny card
The deadcat from my past
You tumble you froth and fun forever
An orchestra from another time
Another world all dead
The churchbells silent the rainstained glass of God is smashed
And you take your choice you sup with the devil
You choke on your pride for ever and ever
My memory of my inmost light tumbles froth and fun forever
Vulvaic memories imagined of my would-be-life
Well that won't be
And that won't be
And that won't be
And for my troubles and my pain
And for the losses and the wains
I get a picture in my mind
The slyly smily smiling kiss
Of your sweet heart and face
And your legs in some final benediction
Your inmost warmheart says ta-ra
The inmost light
And I wished to die inside of you
And push up into your heart so violently that
Face to face with matrix creatrix am
The inmost light
The inmost night



6. The Blood Bells Chime
Sell all you have give it to the kittens
And pour the milk on Louis' grave
And Catland sometimes called Pussydom
Opens for you instantly it's the inmost light!
It's the inmost light
Somewhere over the rainbow
On the goodship lollipop

There oh there
Goodnight
The inmost light
The happy children rise all from their pools
Eyes still sealed
Sleeptight
With mud and night
It's their inmost night
Goodnight

And yet still I which I could dream as when young
Sleeptight
As she came to me so young and honest
Goodbye

Yet the bloodbells chime
I do not notice them I shall not notice them
Yet the bloodbells chime

Tommy Katkins still send his regards
Frozen for ever on some animal somme
The last thing on his mind is marriage
But the call of home and heart

Yet the bloobells chime
Yet the bloobells chime
Yet the bloobells chime


7.Calling For Vanished Faces
If only I could take all of you at once
I would take you for ever and ever and only so
Lose myself in you
And so I smile and skip green god like there
The picture of allrage all lust and wanton
The inmost night
And lay waste to the playgrounds
The concrete covers all
The grass sleeps and waits to rise again
It listens for the final trumpet of
The inmost light
And I clench my left hand
Then I open it
The Gods I loved
Are all dead pages metal signs all gone
Edward Alexander in some sadhome falls alone
And sees clearly now the inmost light

The sadness of the inmost light
The growl the grip an final sigh
Paint by numbers of the inmost light
The plastic form illusion
We just have time to swallow
Before the doorknock of the inmost light
He waits at the door he waits at the door
And if you see me try to grin and then I hide
Myself behind a ball
A sign I wish to play and run hideandseek
The sound is gay and full of joy
It masks the binding of our eyes


8. The Frolic
I take your hand
We walk towards where the roses once grew

I lie back in the grass and dream of how it once was
The rubbishstrewn streets
Riperising smell of gutters and rain
The children abandoned
Mother recalls child in pool
What is that that lies? deadchilddead
I have such nightmares and you're all in all of them
It's worse than you or I can ever know

On the edge of the clouds we crouch
We smile and spit
The pool of saliva carrascates below our feet
It shifts
Children with knives begin to rise from it
They laugh and blow kisses at the moon

We think it's the rain
I see a bird move onto the table in my garden
Its beak scoops up the seeds
The green of the grass and the blue of the sky
Are immense and terrifying
Everything seems so close
So very very close
Should a storm come
Should a storm break and halo all around us
As some savage and blind god
Jerking his hands out to us
The birds drop all around us

I walk into the altar room
All the buddhas are smashed there
Avalokitesvara's hundred faces lie shattered
I have done this
I walk to the makeshift redbrick altar a hundred years ago
There is a small brass image there
I have built this
The red and black ants mill around
Unknown journeys
I take my lighter and torch them
I take my lighter and torch them
I weep, I weep
The ants scatter or writhe
I take my lighter and torch them torch them
I have done this
I am surrounded by butterflies
The chid's legs lay smashed
Please pray for him she says to me
Too late
Alas, oh so too late

I see the twinkling stars
I drop a photograph
I bend to pick it up
My heart leaps as i see your face
Stare up at me from the paper
As if still alive on this earth
When I return my eyes to the stars
They gathered
They pucker
And are blind
And are blind

So lost are we
Oh what have I become
I have become that I hate
I have become that I shall say no

The bird is dead now alas

A voice whispers to me
And says nothing nothing
There is nothing

I look to my right and see her face again
And again the world disappears

And all fall down
All fall down
All fall down I all fall down
All fall down I all fall down
We all fall down
We all fall down




9. The Inmost Light
Though I walk through valley after valley after valley
And find only shadows
Though I walk and find only shadow
The sun falls behind the yew bushes
I young in different shapes stand next to them
The old chapel is to my right
The shadows then lengthen and there again the long shadows fall

When I saw the shadows and starres fall around me as a boy
I knew this world
All we see
Be
And are
Is imperium
Empire of Nothing



10. Twilight Twilight Nihil Nihil
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Who will deliver me from this body of death?

There is no refuge
I have found the word does not save
There is no refuge
In the rock or stone
There is no refuge
In the wind or other forces of nature
The fire especially especially does not save
The fire only destroys
And though it may purify it takes takes takes
And gives nihil back nihil, nihi,l nihil, nihil, nihil
And the holybooks alas have not
Will not alas can not save nihil nihil nihil
This is the chorus of the wind
The sun the moon the waters all blue all green or stagnant
Nihil they sing nihil
The inmost light nihil, nihil
The inmost light nihil, nihil
The inmost light nihil
Finally the child aged dies and sings
Nihil this swansong towards nothing
Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil
We need not not not blow out the candle
Nihil, nihil
It dies anyhow
Nihil, nihil, nihil
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Nihil, nihil, nihil
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Nihil call me nihil, nihil
The stars are so far
I had thought not but nihil, but nihil
The great king is dead
The great queen is dead
Their child stillborn
And so nihil nihil nihil nihil
They call the inmost light
But hear nihil, nihil, nihil
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Nihil, nihil, nihil
I felt I saw you coming over the water
Without you I am nothing
And still I see you
Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil
In the room where
Nihil, nihil, nihil
The wineglass shattered in the box I gave it to you
Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil
Shattered
Nihil
I thought I saw you waving to me over the bay
Nihil, nihil, nihil
You waved
Nihil

Why we have no words any longer
To say to one another
Your mouth opens and
Nihil, nihil, nihil
Bend your face to kiss you said nihil
Bend your arms to hold you said nihil
And nihil, nihil, nihil
There is nothing there
Nihil, nihil, nihil
Bend your face to kiss you said

The waters arise and take me finally
And my remembrance is
Nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil, nihil




11. The Inmost Light Itself
And when I saw the little children sing
Their mouths were red and sad (their lipsticksealèd smiles)
And in their minds they hold and hope some sign
(Some hope)
The gaudy sequinned dragging banner of
The Inmost Light
Around my eyes the sewers spew and laugh
The fallenflower gazes at me reaped
The crippled cuckoo falls brokenwing
And turns around to me and brokenbeak
grins from its head
"Thus so: no fear: thus so: It has arrived:
The Inmost Light"
And if I turn my head for shame
And see my lovers' rivers burst and folding
there
I'll cross my eyes and close my heart
And whisper to her womb
"Greatbloodgreatsilencemymotherthemysteryofall
Nothingmaygrasptheenoonemaygraspthee
Letmeholdtheenowohcomeohcomeatlast
TheInmostLight"
OhGod I trail my hands up to my eyes
Up to my eyes up to my eyes up to my eyes
And say "if only then my Light" -
And "if only if only if:
I had not despised
The Inmost Light"
And so I kneel at bluegateblackmouthdeath
And offer as my feeble explanation: "I
thought so much was left and so much
time to praise and call The Inmost Light")
And, I suppose, fullhalf and more of these
are dreams
Some broken code of morals rising after I
had touched
Her very pith and marrow - oh! her Inmost
Light

If I could scatter children
If I could scatter children

And while I gaze and count my coins
(After Your godgoldglow they're dead; the
head is dead and lead)
I see and feel the hiding glow blaze behind
You; The Inmost Light
And if Your lips are taut
Don't move Your teeth to speak
The lines will start to fall
And pull the structure of Your world then all
apart
And thus you see You'll call The Inmost
Night
(It wispered to me and laughed and said
You lied and shamed
The Inmost Light)
And if You recall I bent yewlike and roared
You did not see the cloudburst wind dead
towards You
Of The Inmost Light
Our hands tumble towards the skies
To block visions of The Inmost Light
And if I pointless arch
And spit whitenothings at the sky
Oh Bigboys - check it out: too fucking late
(The children move through town
And skip tornskirted and roll the hoop into
the arms
Of Inmost Light)
Sheer, char, shrift, and sharp
Christ is risen: You may creep to the Cross
too late
But it's much too late to welcome
The Inmost Light
Branch, sallow, willow and yew
And trees notso gay no more
So falling faster and faster we fall
Nearer cataclysm
Or salvation
Or nothing - how terrible
If we are snuffed out, with just the
momentary mark of smoke
To array our passing
So we stand, milky in moonlight

(Is this all there is?)
(Is this all there is?)
(Is this all there is?)

Our eyes so fixed
That the darkness surrounds us
Unnoticed
And we are drowned by the loss of light
Unnoticed

Is this all there is my friends?
Is this all there is?

(Goodnight goodnight The Inmost Light)

Westron wynde when wyll thow blow?
The smalle rayne downe can rayne can rayne.
Cryst! Yf my love were in my armys,
And I yn my bed a gayne

Will You wait for me there
By the dead clock?
No more dying
One red bird
Will You meet me there?
Before I sputter out?
Dragonflies and mayflies
Hovering candles
As alabaster guardians for me
If you open that door
All hell floods out
But quietly, drably
The colour of
The smell of
The texture of
The choke of
Dust



12. All The Pretty Little Horses
Hush-a-bye
Don't you cry
Go to sleepy little baby
Go to sleepy little baby
When you wake
You shall have
All the pretty little horsies
All the pretty little horsies

Blacks and bays
Dapples and greys
All the pretty little horsies

Way down yonder
In the meadow
Lies a poor little lamby
Bees and butterflies
Flitting round his eyes
Poor little thing is crying
"Mammy"

Go to sleep
Don't you cry
Rest your head upon the clover
Rest your head upon the clover
In your dreams
You shall ride
Whilst your mammy's watching over

Blacks and bays
Dapples and greys
All the pretty little horsies

All the pretty little horsies
All the pretty little horsies
All the pretty little horsies



13. Patripassian
The rivers of Babylon flow
And fall
And carry away

Jesus is alone on earth
Not merely with no one to feel and share His agony
But with no one even to know of it
Heaven and he are the only ones to know
Jesus is in a garden
Not of delight
Like the first Adam
Who there fell and took with him all mankind
But of agony
Where He has saved Himself and all mankind

He suffers this anguish and abandonment in the horror of the night

Jesus will be in agony until the end of the world
There must be no resting in the meantime

To Eden with me you will not leave
To live in my cottage of crazy crooked Eves
In your own heavy home
Take care of this night
When you let your little cat in
Turn on the light
Something scurries behind
And finds a cozy place to stare
Something sent to you from paradise
Paradisicallysomewhere
Tongues flouring
They leap out laughing
Lapping
Disappear