Farewell to 23.

"I stood in that place for a long time, quite torn by my current ideas of right and wrong. My heart was full of pain,anger,sadness and doubt. I wanted revenge, justice,redemption. I wanted all wrong doers to suffer the same they had hurt. Deep down I truly felt that this was the only way I could mend my broken soul. Maybe I was a coward or there was a glimmer of hope and light at the end of other path. I don’t know why but I continue on the good path as if I was supposed to learn some life lessons from all that had happened. Yet, I wasn’t myself. I’m weak, fragile, unsure of myself. Songs flowed out like therapy nonetheless, but still there was the darkness lurking in my heart. I finally decided to explore this feeling. I let my mind race with the ‘what ifs’ and I fantasized about taking that other darker path. It was all too real and it was scary. Yes, it was all just a dream, but it was all of this alternate truth if I had turned left instead of right all those years ago. I spent years plotting my revenge on the cruel world of men. I murdered many —— 23 terrible men in all. I spent years in prison for it, but I was finally at peace and when I was released, I retreated back to the forest. When I awoke from the lifetime dream, I truly was at peace. I have fulfilled the dreams of my dark side. I am not sure if the dark side exists within anymore. I am almost just full of hope now. No one should ever truly take that dark path, but there is no one that says we can’t dream about it for a little while.”

                                                              —— Amanda Rogers