吹泡泡，这是一种生命态度
我不记得确切时间开始感觉到自己的与众不同，但似乎生命被标记了，因而只得循着一种步调决然前往。
大街上，灯红酒绿。我是一个面无表情的女孩，大帆布包，戴着耳机。这样的状态也许为多数熟识我的人所习惯。
“她永远都是一个人，喜欢活在自己的世界里”
“她毫不介意把自己关起来一个礼拜，期间不接电话，不与任何人接触”
并为更多的不熟识我的人所漠视。
“她就是不说话的”
“她就是冷漠，对人爱理不理”
“她缺乏朋友，古怪而不合群”
高二的时候，我就踩着脚踏车，日日夜夜穿梭在这个城市中了。那年的夏天很热，日光毒辣。好在我为自己随着日光角度高起来绝望情感的找到了解药：吹泡泡。是她，抑或是他，给了我一种全新的，表达忧伤的方式——直视忧伤，承认忧伤，爱上忧伤。而不再是像社会主流思想那样，否定月夜，雨天中的微小情绪。我不知道为什么人们都喜欢阳光，兴高采烈的像兔子一般的为人处事，也不理解究竟人们是出于何种目的，只去欣赏活力，健全跟所谓完美的生活态度。高二时候的我只有17岁。17岁的我已经为承受着某种巨大而无以言状的情感无所适从。所有的记忆和眼泪，所有文字隐忍着的渴望跟失望将那时的自己完全抽干。在这种状态下，吹泡泡似乎能将一切解脱。因为她就是忧伤的符号，呐喊着的哭泣。
第一个接触的吹泡乐队是蓝色基地。毫无疑问在之后的日子里我也爱上了蓝色，迷恋起了淌在身体里面的蓝色血液。这种空灵虚幻，一开始就抓住了人脆弱敏感的神经，无力回旋，只想越沉越深。记得那时听着这样的曲子在午间空无一人的连廊独自舞蹈。把阳光分割成碎片，用变换着形状的背影打破温暖的独裁。我要冷静，我不要麻木，我要自由，我不要喧嚣。我想活的充盈，长出绿色的长发。我想和着凌厉的疾风暴雨，痛快的笑，大声的哭。
As I Moved On - Blue Foundation
come and dance, come
i was all alone, going for a ride
travelling solo, off my guard
i had to follow this calling from the wild
into the shadows
into the shadows of my heart
ieeded all my strength to
stand up to your agenda
i said it, i said it again
i never wanna become
stuck in your machine
i said it, i said it again
come and dance, come
and as i moved on, thought i'd blow my mind
but as it turned out, i was wrong
i met my sorrow, saw her in the eyes
she tried my courage
she tried my courage, but left me stronger
(you berrer stand up straight and you gotta be strong
you gotta fighe for your right and reclaim yuor own song)
i needed all my strength to
stand up to your agenda
i said it,i said it again
i never wanna become
stuck in your machine
i said it, i said it again
come and dance, come
转眼间就过了那个雨季。情绪不在雨水般丰沛。与其一起干瘪下来的还有那份与生俱来的忧伤。开始听民谣，听赏心悦目的电影原声，听悠扬典雅的新世纪纯音乐。从大一到大二结束的许久许久，某种程度认可社会规则了，试图去改变自己，忙不迭的参加各种活动，以弥补精神上的空旷，人际上的孤独。事实上还是出了成效的，某个傻头傻脑的男生就然开始对我死心塌地。但我知道他喜欢的只是我潜心塑造的某个壳子而已，他喜欢的并不是真实的我。故事自然是一出悲剧，做别的方式是毫不回头的离开，永不相见。
热闹之后还是寂寞的，我又走上了自己的单行道。翻出满是尘埃的吹泡，插上耳机。一种久违的清醒凛冽。是Mono，让我在深秋的街道上，怅然若失。
《life in mono》
The stranger sang a theme
From someone else’s dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can’t seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue Ingenue
I just don’t know what to doThe tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can’t seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue Ingenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue (fade out)
刚从地铁站出来，不善于分辩方向的女孩站在北京的某个街角。时间已是深夜十点，盛大的黑夜早已拉开帷幕。黑夜下面掩盖着的是蠢蠢欲动的人们，蠢蠢欲动的欲望。
我不告诉你我爱你，
我可以爱上任何人。
我在完全陌生的环境里观察着完全陌生的人，
只想在你的脸上找到温暖的线索
填补我饥肠辘辘的心
我们在生命的某个时刻彼此辉映
纵然路过，我却愿意将自己交付
黑暗的背面不是罪恶
黑暗背面是你犹豫的心情，是你的真自我
我渴望真实的触摸，
不是道义层面的，不是理想许诺的，
只想和你一起燃烧在这繁华荒芜中
Blonde Redhead讲着小女人的心事，Blonde Redhead唱出女孩的与众不同。她越来越热爱忧伤的调子，忧伤简直成了她的生命符号。她终于理解了这种电子鼓噪声很强的缓拍节奏，也许要在她之后很长很长的生命里相互陪伴。这是一种生命态度。
要凛冽，不要麻木。要清醒，不要平庸的活。
Dr. Strangeluv
Looking everywhere, I see nothing but people
Looking everywhere, but I see nothing but people
Where have they gone? I always thought I could never leave them
They are calling me, but they don't know I can't stay all night long
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so sad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so bad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Looking everywhere, keep my fire going
Cold look in their eyes, cold air in their hearts
They are calling me, I always thought I could save them all
They are calling me, they don't know I can't stay all night long
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so sad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so bad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Looking everywhere, keep my fire going
大街上，灯红酒绿。我是一个面无表情的女孩，大帆布包，戴着耳机。这样的状态也许为多数熟识我的人所习惯。
“她永远都是一个人，喜欢活在自己的世界里”
“她毫不介意把自己关起来一个礼拜，期间不接电话，不与任何人接触”
并为更多的不熟识我的人所漠视。
“她就是不说话的”
“她就是冷漠，对人爱理不理”
“她缺乏朋友，古怪而不合群”
高二的时候，我就踩着脚踏车，日日夜夜穿梭在这个城市中了。那年的夏天很热，日光毒辣。好在我为自己随着日光角度高起来绝望情感的找到了解药：吹泡泡。是她，抑或是他，给了我一种全新的，表达忧伤的方式——直视忧伤，承认忧伤，爱上忧伤。而不再是像社会主流思想那样，否定月夜，雨天中的微小情绪。我不知道为什么人们都喜欢阳光，兴高采烈的像兔子一般的为人处事，也不理解究竟人们是出于何种目的，只去欣赏活力，健全跟所谓完美的生活态度。高二时候的我只有17岁。17岁的我已经为承受着某种巨大而无以言状的情感无所适从。所有的记忆和眼泪，所有文字隐忍着的渴望跟失望将那时的自己完全抽干。在这种状态下，吹泡泡似乎能将一切解脱。因为她就是忧伤的符号，呐喊着的哭泣。
第一个接触的吹泡乐队是蓝色基地。毫无疑问在之后的日子里我也爱上了蓝色，迷恋起了淌在身体里面的蓝色血液。这种空灵虚幻，一开始就抓住了人脆弱敏感的神经，无力回旋，只想越沉越深。记得那时听着这样的曲子在午间空无一人的连廊独自舞蹈。把阳光分割成碎片，用变换着形状的背影打破温暖的独裁。我要冷静，我不要麻木，我要自由，我不要喧嚣。我想活的充盈，长出绿色的长发。我想和着凌厉的疾风暴雨，痛快的笑，大声的哭。
As I Moved On - Blue Foundation
come and dance, come
i was all alone, going for a ride
travelling solo, off my guard
i had to follow this calling from the wild
into the shadows
into the shadows of my heart
ieeded all my strength to
stand up to your agenda
i said it, i said it again
i never wanna become
stuck in your machine
i said it, i said it again
come and dance, come
and as i moved on, thought i'd blow my mind
but as it turned out, i was wrong
i met my sorrow, saw her in the eyes
she tried my courage
she tried my courage, but left me stronger
(you berrer stand up straight and you gotta be strong
you gotta fighe for your right and reclaim yuor own song)
i needed all my strength to
stand up to your agenda
i said it,i said it again
i never wanna become
stuck in your machine
i said it, i said it again
come and dance, come
转眼间就过了那个雨季。情绪不在雨水般丰沛。与其一起干瘪下来的还有那份与生俱来的忧伤。开始听民谣，听赏心悦目的电影原声，听悠扬典雅的新世纪纯音乐。从大一到大二结束的许久许久，某种程度认可社会规则了，试图去改变自己，忙不迭的参加各种活动，以弥补精神上的空旷，人际上的孤独。事实上还是出了成效的，某个傻头傻脑的男生就然开始对我死心塌地。但我知道他喜欢的只是我潜心塑造的某个壳子而已，他喜欢的并不是真实的我。故事自然是一出悲剧，做别的方式是毫不回头的离开，永不相见。
热闹之后还是寂寞的，我又走上了自己的单行道。翻出满是尘埃的吹泡，插上耳机。一种久违的清醒凛冽。是Mono，让我在深秋的街道上，怅然若失。
《life in mono》
The stranger sang a theme
From someone else’s dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can’t seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue Ingenue
I just don’t know what to doThe tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can’t seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue Ingenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue
I just don’t know what to doIngenue (fade out)
刚从地铁站出来，不善于分辩方向的女孩站在北京的某个街角。时间已是深夜十点，盛大的黑夜早已拉开帷幕。黑夜下面掩盖着的是蠢蠢欲动的人们，蠢蠢欲动的欲望。
我不告诉你我爱你，
我可以爱上任何人。
我在完全陌生的环境里观察着完全陌生的人，
只想在你的脸上找到温暖的线索
填补我饥肠辘辘的心
我们在生命的某个时刻彼此辉映
纵然路过，我却愿意将自己交付
黑暗的背面不是罪恶
黑暗背面是你犹豫的心情，是你的真自我
我渴望真实的触摸，
不是道义层面的，不是理想许诺的，
只想和你一起燃烧在这繁华荒芜中
Blonde Redhead讲着小女人的心事，Blonde Redhead唱出女孩的与众不同。她越来越热爱忧伤的调子，忧伤简直成了她的生命符号。她终于理解了这种电子鼓噪声很强的缓拍节奏，也许要在她之后很长很长的生命里相互陪伴。这是一种生命态度。
要凛冽，不要麻木。要清醒，不要平庸的活。
Dr. Strangeluv
Looking everywhere, I see nothing but people
Looking everywhere, but I see nothing but people
Where have they gone? I always thought I could never leave them
They are calling me, but they don't know I can't stay all night long
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so sad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so bad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Looking everywhere, keep my fire going
Cold look in their eyes, cold air in their hearts
They are calling me, I always thought I could save them all
They are calling me, they don't know I can't stay all night long
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so sad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Hey, Dr Strangeluv so bad, isn't it true ?
(You left without goodbye)
Looking everywhere, keep my fire going
