It all stops, but I can never say goodbye.

打开先行曲就感觉回到了n年前精神状态极度糟糕每晚边淋浴边无限循环bloodflowers的夏天，还有坐在yy姐小电驴上回宿舍一路lovesong的秋天，总是部分你逃脱不了总在重复的日子，和部分你想回去却无法实现的日子。

前两首就让人碎得很彻底hhh

<Alone>的

"And here is to love, to all the love

Falling out of our lives

Hopes and dreams are gone

The end of every song

And it all stops

We were always sure that we would never change

And it all stops

We were always sure that we would stay the same

But it all stops"

<And Nothing is Forever>

"I know, I know that my world is grown old

But it really doesn't matter if you say we'll be together

If you promise you'll be with me in the end

If you promise you'll be with me in the end

And slide down close beside me in the silence of a heartbeat"

歌有尽时，年华老去，人生总别离，世界已经陌生的让人恐惧。面对一个原本笃定总会永远不变，实际上已经遗失的世界，该是什么样的心情呢。And <I can never say goodbye>

部分类似22年Suede <Autofiction> 那张里 <15 Again> 对过去的感慨，

"Nothing is as bad as the time we killed

Sitting in the bathroom in kitten heels

But people seem to know how we feel

Fifteen again

Oh what a wasted love

We are stained in our hearts

Afternoons in bedrooms with TV meals

Laying in the road and under your wheels

And people think they know how you feel"

部分是“老头们”这个年纪对所失去的人与事的真诚告白，<I can never say goodbye>与<She still leads me on>，让我想起某段日子里，总会把Evans三张 <We Will Meet Again> <You Must Belive In Spring> <I'll Say Goodbye> 搭在一起列表循环。

“那片被四条大马路围在中间的校园，就是我们的城、我们的国，暗藏着所有的命运与梦想。我们窝在文学院地下室角落的社办，绞尽脑汁写出一篇篇校园观察和文化论述，还有自传体的抒情诗文，努力描绘着大时代、革命、青春和理想。我们天真地张望校园外边那个翻腾激变的大社会，并且确凿相信一份发行量四千张的学生刊物便足以改变别人和自己的生命。我们自恃年轻，并不怯于暴露自己。社办桌上的留言簿总是密密麻麻写满了各自呕心沥血的思索与告白。我们多的是不吝挥霍的时间，用以倾吐和聆听，用以想象渺不可知的未来。二十来岁的大孩子，生命中最重要的，恐怕也就是这些了。

我们在那个潮湿多蚊虫的地下室角落开会、写稿、编报、弹吉他、恋爱和失恋，偶尔为了一些抽象笼统的主题陷入冗长的激辩，偶尔呆呆坐着什么都不做，贪看楼梯间玻璃窗漏下来的那方阳光在墙面缓缓扫过。有时候看看学弟妹，觉得自己已经很老很老，很有几分沧桑之叹；有时候想到未来，又觉得自己实在太年轻，还扛不动“大人世界”的重量。”

The world is what it is. It can’t be called indifferent, but it still appears brutal to us.

For now, I don’t want to learn to say goodbye, to learn to end things, or to learn to change.