那一年

    97年的夏天暑假，我病倒，小女朋友拿了这张磁带给我，躺在病床上热血澎湃，边上坐着她，悠闲的看《幽游白书》。彼时，我17、她16，我是吉他手、她是鼓手，还以为G&R是世界上最金属的乐队。
     便爱上这张黑色专辑，11年，似乎没有那一年完全没听它。
     谁都不能找到答案，不论黑色有多深沉。
     同年冬，我躺在她的卧室、她的床上，磁带放到Nothing Else Matters ，我说，“我们做爱吧？”
     “我怕。”
     “没事的。”
     “那好吧。”
      她的指甲抓破了我的背……My Friend Of Misery
     “我会怀孕吧？”
     “不会。”
     “为什么？”
     “因为没射在里面。”
     “不是插进去就会怀孕么？”
     “……” Sad But True

     若干年里，孤独的时候就会听Nothing Else Matters。
      十年，我们都不是那时的少年。
      我还在做很重的音乐，很重，长发不见了，纹身也会遮住。
      她在埃及、伊朗、伊拉克游荡……
      
      跟队友说“金属是写在骨头里的东西”
      
      So close, no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I found you
every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
but I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be no more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I found you
every day for us something new
Open mind for a differend view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for what they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they known
And I know

So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are

别管他们怎么说
别管他们怎么玩
别管他们怎么做
别管他们知道什么
因为我知道

    找不到答案，就要相信命运。不着边际的想象自己，不论做与不做，皆是对生命的执著，面对现实的无力，化为无穷的能量，秉承见了黄河也不死心，见了棺材也不落泪的信念，对着命运的南墙，发动粗野的冲击。
    金属是什么？
    现实面前节节败退，并屡败屡战，直至死亡。
    爱情面前不顾一切，并永远坦诚，直至死亡。