As the warmth of the sun leaves my back And these bruise colored skies turn to black None of these faces look the same And not a one knows my name
Oh, I am a long way from home
This road is now my only friend It welcomes me through straights and through bends But no matter how long I stay, It will never know my name
Oh, I am a long way from home Yeah, I am a long way from home
02 - A Pound Of Flesh
My feet pull on From light to dawn My empty belly in my body aches Ain't hard to take Next to the weight I carry in my chest A pound of flesh Could never tip the scale that I've made I should have stayed but I was never was I hear your voices in the wind that cuts the cold
And the pain of whatever is listing things will be alright
All my bolder life Your heart still beating So don't you die don't you mind We all drift sometimes
I can still hear your feet as you ran from the house Knowing you will be back doesn't mean that I will stop waiting Told me then hold me down hold me up to the fire Don't you dare hold me back
I see your faces in the clouds that scar the night And no matter who words lists of things we'll be alright
And today I wake up feeling easy And find I'm on the more familiar roads I got a darkness wrapped inside me but now it ain't so hard to let it go So keep your candle burning in the window I'm almost home
03 - Family Portrait
So we start with my father as a boy barely spoke a word of english fell in love from a distance he watched her working from the back fence He learned some words and some clever turns of phrase from his father's book of poets, she wasn't taken in that instant, but grew impressed with his persistence.
They met each other out by moonlight, made love in the nearby woods, then her folks became suspicious when her cycle broke and (?). They stole away without their goodbyes, got married in a foreign town, made their way as best as they could. Found jobs and settled down. And then time moved on.
I was born in a river of blood on sheets from the wedding day. The room was dark and the stench was
thick my father couldn't stand the smell of it.
Mama died in the night cause the nearest doctor couldn't stem the blood loss. Father cried out on the back porch. My sister held me at the neighbor's house. Oh my there was a storm then, there was a flood of a different kind. Father's eyes were often vacant, but his hands were rarely quiet. Sister learned to take her hits well, both from life and the physical kind, but I was never one to lie down, despite who picked the fight. So we designed our hells.
Father turned into a drinker, a dark bastard with a wooden heart. Sister learned to be a mother, before she ever played another part. And I became a little terror, I lashed out at whatever's around. Took some time before I settled, to find a mind that was somewhat sound. And like it always does, time rushed on.
Six years later father died in the very same bedroom. Many said it was the grief that did it, I have to say it's cause he hung himself. To be honest neither sister nor myself ever much regret his passing. But I admit it was a nice thing, to always know that we could feed ourselves.
04 - Black Eyes
When you last left me my blood was in a jar And you kept it on your mantelpiece I couldn’t count on anyone to stand there behind me And keep the dogs from dragging me off with them While I slept you crept in and pulled the rug right out from under me [?] you stole away and took the parts that kept me functioning
My heart will be blacker than your eyes when I’m through with you
And I said, this life ain’t no love song while I marched on blindly And my knuckles dragged across the walls And the birds up there mock me and the scenery’s turned wicked And your name is trapped beneath my tongue
All of the roads are one now, each choice is the same All the roads, they are one now, each choice is the same I won’t show my hands now, I know this ain’t a game All the roads, they are one now, each choice is…
Take a step, take another step, take another step, not a care for where they fall You burned me, yeah you’ve burned me, yeah you’ve burned me now one too many times My thoughts are the cold kind, I’ve got storm clouds that are brewing behind my eyes
And my heart will be blacker than your eyes when I’m through with you
05 - Severus And Stone
all the trees stood like skeletons silhouettes of spilled ink and the snows fell in sheets and got wrapped around our feet we built the fire evermore with winter beating at the door
brother's eyes were getting heavier his bony hands cold and white and I could hear his ragged breathing like the wind along a knife there beside him through the night, in the hum of candlelight I no longer felt the time
brother woke just after midnight and he didn't make a sound and as he climbed from out of bed with severed rings around his head his feet didn't touch the ground
I could feel it then a tiny miracle so I followed him into the woods crossed beneath the trees but only I left my prints in tow he was afloat found a lonely tree and tied himself within its limbs and he said to me these words: don't you fear for me, I am where I'm supposed to be.
and when I woke he was gone and I was wrapped in blankets on the lawn the sky was blue and my skin matched the hue and I could hear mother crying in your room from here on out I wear this face for both of us
06 - The Moon Is Down
There ain't no moon tonight It's hard for me to see But if I can catch a glimpse of you It helps me feel at ease It helps me sleep
All my life I've watched you dance along To music that I can't hear I ain't equipped to hear those songs
I like the way you talk about all the things you've seen You make the world seem small for a time Though it's still too big for me
All my life I've watched you dance along To music that I can't hear I ain't equipped to hear those songs
You were never at rest You were always somewhere-bound But as for me, I'm the simple kind I'll live and die in this town And I know my home ain't big enough That it would only keep you down And I'd hate to see you caged So all that I ask Is you come say hi when you're around It ain't much But it's good enough for me
07 - Ghost Towns
I've got no need for open roads 'Cause all I own fits on my back I see the world from rusted trains And always know I won't be back
'Cause all my life is wrapped up in today No past or future here If I find my name's no good I just fall out of line
But I miss you But there's comin' home There's no comin' home With a name like mine I still think of you But everyone knows Yeah everyone knows If you can, let it go
I seen more places than I can name And over time they all start to look the same But it ain't that truth we chase No, it's the promise of a better place
But all this time, I been chasin' down a lie And I know it for what it is But it beats the alternatives So I'll take the lie
I still miss you There's no goin' home There's no goin' home With a name like mine I still dream of you But everyone knows Yeah everyone knows If you can, let it go
08 - Kin
grandma's singing in the bedroom it's a near forgotten lullaby that she used to sing when I wasn't well father's outside chopping firewood like he did when he'd been drinking or when he and mom were at it again
grandpa's rocking chair is rocking I can hear the wood complaining and the idle taps as he empties his pipe I do my best to just ignore them but the sound always finds me despite them being dead and gone
I hear them all the time I hear them all the time I hear them all the time I hear them all the time
I hear you all the time I feel you in my mind I cannot sleep, but I'm tryin' I hear you all the time
09 - The Dead Waltz
I saw your daughter yesterday as I was idle on the porch she slept-walked from your house down the walkway as though she'd done it all before and the moon was out
and in her gown beside the riverbed she got down on her knees and wrapped her long hair up in vines, and leaves, and branches and with the wind beneath her feet oh, she waltzed with the dead
and everything was bathed in light white as milk as the impossible began she danced across the water's edge but her feet, they didn't sink as though she flew
I ran out in the water with a lantern in my hand I was waste deep and shivering I took her wrist and walked her in I was loathe to interrupt her but I had to get her home if people were to see this, they'd gather up, raise hell and burn her alive
don't you mind, don't you mind she'll be fine tie a bell around her ankle before she lays down at night and the sound of her footsteps will wake me in time don't you mind, don't you mind I'll watch over her as though she were mine
10 - Always Gold
We were tight knit boys Brothers and more than men You would kill for me And knew that I'd do the same And it cut me sharp Hearing you'd gone away
But everything goes away Yeah everything goes away
But I'm going to be here until I'm nothing But bones in the ground
And I was there, when you grew restless Left in the dead of night And I was there, when three months later You were standing in the door all beat and tired And I stepped aside
Everything goes away Yeah everything goes away But I'm gonna be here until I'm nothing But bones in the ground So quiet down
We were opposites at birth I was steady as a hammer No one worried cause they knew just where I'd be And they said you were the crooked kind And that you'd never have no worth But you were always gold to me
And back when we were kids We swore we knew the future And our words would take us half way 'round the world But I never left this town And you never saw New York And we ain't ever cross the sea
But I am fine with where I am now This home is home, and all that I need But for you, this place is shame But you can blame me when there's no one left to blame
Oh I don't mind
All my life I've never known where you've been There were holes in you The kind that I could not mend
And I heard you say Right when you left that day Does everything go away? Yeah, everything goes away.
But I'm going to be here till forever So just call when you're around.
11 - Mountains
I was just a boy My father seemed a mountain then With a voice that could shake the seas My mother's ghost hung across his shoulders And he said she was still watching over me
My brother was home Just returned on army leave Told his stories with a distant stare And as it snowed The wind was howling through the trees And I spent my night just listening by the fire
My hands move the creases from my brow Soft as a breath It's like a feather I dreamed of a lonely voice that night Quiet as death Outside my window It sang a sad and lovely tune Clear as a bell Soft as a shiver It said, I want you all the time It said, I want you all the time
Goodbye bad thoughts I'm safe under covers So goodbye bad thoughts 'Cause I'm safe under covers Now I can see you again