W:O:A小企鹅鹅的音乐

直到最后我都不知道她是谁 见她的第一次是在愚公移山我们的乐队Bad Mamasan新专辑首发party上 短头发黑色长裙的姑娘 可能也不听old school metal吧 在舞池里忘我的扭动 着魔般地跳舞 我叼着一支烟 不明亮的灯光里什么都看不清楚 没去在意 喜欢DJ电子乱入的人一抓一大把 更何况我又是deathrocker打扮的纯粹金属党 那天晚上心绪混乱得紧 身体里的兽仿佛要叫嚣冲出一般 很多朋友 激流党们美得很 后来在2 Kolegas，他拉着我的手在人群中穿行，心慌。我看到那个姑娘依旧握着一杯酒 迷醉的样子 禁不住的就多看了几眼 不漂亮 就是有点儿那么说不清道不明的东西 穿了件FREESOUL的黑色运动外套 后来她和同来的长发女伴起了争执 声音干脆好听 说着漂亮的英文 我总是会被说着好听外语的人吸引 定定地盯着她 于是伸出了一只手 我对那长发女孩儿说 别碰她了 Leave her alone 罗琦喝的有点多 抱着头坐在2 kolegas的小舞台边上 Yang在我身后睡得很熟 挤在狭小的沙发上 握着他的手 我开始端详这一袭黑裙的破碎的姑娘 她抬头笑起来很好看 "Babe, r u ok?" "I'm good, just a bit tired. It's ok." 再后来 她跑到台子上唱歌 我惊艳了 随意地歌唱 肆意地歌唱 身体里有着卡门性格的野姑娘 "I love your singing, adorable." "Really?Thank you!" 只此罢了 第二次认出她是那天在愚公移山，French Horn Rebellion。实话是，这种电趴给我听起来难听得要死。不过反正我看上去也像是乱入的，一身黑色渔网+new rock boots，黑口红紫眼影，依旧叼着烟，耳机里放着Amon Amarth在人家大门口headbanging。 她出来的时候，笑起来眼角还是弯弯的，我说hej。我说宝贝你今天没喝多。 再后来，我觉得这姑娘的声音真是美丽，我说你叫什么名字。她哈哈开始笑，她说我是指南针乐队的主唱，我是罗琦啊！ 好吧，原来你就是罗琦。 说来也巧，当天也忘了是在哪儿了，还提到了她的名字。 我总是干这种乌龙事件，遇到了形形色色的人们，有愉快地聊天，然后各自相忘，甚至不知道对方是谁。 我记得那天晚上夜色很美，后半夜天气很凉。Yang在愚公移山卖票的门口牵着我的手跳一支舞。我笨拙的大靴子和踉跄的舞步。眼睛里漾着笑意。"Im Dunkelheit, ich liebe dich immer so sehr. 隐匿在黑夜里，伫立在平安大道的中央，幻想这一刻天地崩塌，能和心爱的人一起死去。 临别的时候，在她脸颊上落了一吻，也不知道还会不会有机会再相遇，罗琦，那声音荒芜美丽的姑娘。

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转帖 Lz只负责了翻译部分 射射 笑死爹了 传送门在此：http://www.lastfm.ru/group/Black+Metal/forum/24666/_/616686 How ‘Belus’ Turned Me Gay Belus是肿么让伦家变成基佬的 I am 18 years old, with a little Jewish ancestry. I live in Britain, famous for our homosexuals, though I never thought I would become one. This is the story of how an anti-life Black Metal Knight became a cock-craving queer. 我今年18岁，有一点点犹太血统，人家住在以基佬闻名于世的大不列颠，不过我从来木有想过有一天我也会加入他们……介尼玛是一个传说，关于我是怎样从一个反对生命的黑金属战士变成一渴望jj的基佬的…… All my life I have been... different. I have always scorned the masses; they never understood my radical views on life and religion. I have been a complete misanthrope, I hate humans. When I was younger I remember my parents shouting and screaming at each other, I cried for their attention but it never came. I remember listening to father tell my mother he was going to stab her, and him breaking her nose. I never remembered them telling me they loved me. Huh! My mother moved out and I lived with her in a run-down estate. People would regularly steal from us and throw bricks through our windows. 我的一生一直都是和别人不一样的……我一直都瞧不起那些主流大众们，哼；他们从来就不能理解老子对于生命和宗教的激进观点。我一直都是一个完全的厌世悲观不和人类来往的怪咖，我憎恨人类。当我还小的时候，我记得的就是我父母互相大声争论吵架尖叫嘶吼。我哭过，试图去让他们注意到我，可是从来就没成功过。我记得我粑粑对人家说过要戳死我麻麻，打断她的鼻梁。我从来木有听过他们说他们爱我。哼！麻麻后来搬粗去鸟，我和她住在一个破败的房子里。周围的邻居们总是偷我们的东西，朝我们的窗户上扔板儿砖。 At school I was an outcast. Looked down upon on; bullied. I had suicidal thoughts at the age of 8. So I've always known I was different from the masses. My mind can only be understood by few, my intelligence is mocked in this decaying world. Being as smart and wise as me comes with a great loneliness. 在学校我也是边缘人，被人瞧不起，被人欺负。我八岁的时候就想过自杀。所以我一直都知道我和他们都不一样。我的想法只有很少的人懂，我的智慧才智被这个腐朽的世界嘲讽。所以像老子这么有思想这么牛逼的人士就只有高处不胜寒，各种撒比西神马的。 All my (few) friendships fell away as humans continually abandoned me. And of course even the people I was closest with would never truly ‘know’ me. I could never be totally honest with them. I never had any fulfilling relationships with the female species, I came to look upon them as meat, only useful to fulfil sexual urges. 我所有的（极少的）友谊最后都以人类们一个接一个放弃我终结。当然了，就算和我最好的人类也永远不可能真正的“懂我”，成为“知己”。我从来不完全地相信他们。我也从来没有从异性人类种族身上获得过真正的满足，我总是高高在上地看待她们，对我来说，不过是肉体罢了，只能用来发泄欲望。 This childhood led me to a life of misanthropy; I walked the streets, sneering at humans to myself. I would imagine shooting them, stabbing them, ending their pointless, disgusting lives. The laws of Britain prohibit me from simply buying a gun, but if I could have acquired one, I have no doubt I would have gone on a killing spree before terminating my own life. I had no hope for humanity. 童年的阴影使我成为了一个厌世主义者。我走在大街上，自个儿在心底嘲笑这些人类。我会意淫开枪崩了他们，捅死丫们，结束他们木有意义的恶心的生命。可是英国的法律禁止我去买一把枪，可是如果老子能得到一把，毫无疑问的，我便会在结束我自个儿生命之前，享受各种杀戮的纵欲狂欢。我对人性不抱任何希望。 But at around the age of 14 I discovered something that changed my life. Black Metal. The first Black Metal album I listened to was Midian by Cradle of Filth. Other people turn to drugs, alcohol, sex... but for me Cradle of Filth was my drug. It was unlike anything I had ever heard before. It was vicious and hateful; it was like someone out there finally understood me! I was not alone anymore. 但是大概在我14岁左右，黑金属改变了我的生命轨迹。我听的第一张黑金属专辑是污秽的摇篮的那张《Midian》。别人沉溺于毒（和谐）品，酒精，性……但是对我来说，污秽的摇篮就是我的毒（和谐）品。这特么和我之前听过的任何东西都不一样，他们邪恶并且充满仇恨，他们就是一直等在那儿的最终能理解我的力量！我再也不是孤单于世的了。 Cradle of Filth, and later Dimmur Borgir, fuelled my aggression and hatred for humanity. I was hungry for more evil Black Metal and discovered Taake and Burzum. Their music spoke to me; I let it flow into my brain. I became pure hate! 污秽的摇篮，然后是黑暗堡垒，他们进一步激发了我对人类的敌对情绪和仇恨。我渴望更多的邪恶的黑金属，于是我找到了Taake和Burzum。他们的音乐和我的灵魂对话，影响我的思想。我就是最纯粹的仇恨！ Black Metal was my outlet. I no longer cared what the masses thought; I now came to call them the ‘normals’. They were foolish and deserved my utter contempt, their words and actions filled me with disgust. But with Carpathian Forest on my iPod I learnt to live with and control my hatred and anger. The normals could never even contemplate the magnitude of evil, misanthropic Black Metal. 黑金属是我的发泄渠道，老子再也不在乎那些地球人的想法了；现在我称呼他们“正常人类”。他们太傻b了，我从心底轻视唾弃他们，他们的言辞和行为只能让我感到恶心。但是听了我ipod里面的Carpathian Forest，我学着去控制自己的仇恨和愤怒生活。那些正常人类永远都不会去思考了解并知道邪恶的厌世的黑金属哲学有多么的伟大。 My favourite, though, was Burzum. Burzum: church arsonist and slayer of the homosexual Euronymous. Homosexuals disgusted me, vile twisted creatures. I grew feelings for Varg, not only as a musician but as a human. His hatred of the normals and Christianity (or Christinsanity as I liked to call it) spoke to me on higher plane than Dimmu Borgir or Satyricon. I knew he was special. 然而我的挚爱，是Burzum。没有之一。Burzum：烧教堂的纵火犯，杀了基佬Euronymous的凶手。基佬让我恶心，他们是可耻的扭曲的变态生物。我开始对瓦哥产生好感，不仅仅是因为他是个乐手，而是为他这个人。他对正常人类和基督教（我更喜欢称之为基督神性）的憎恨更深层地影响到了我，比Dimmu Borgir或是Satyricon都更为深远。我知道，瓦哥，乃素特别的…… By now as was listening almost exclusively to Burzum. I found messages in his music; it was like finding the Holy Grail. I read the liner notes of his albums, they were Biblical to me. I began to recite his lyrics as hymns or mantras. 直到现在Burzum几乎都是我唯一在听的音乐，我从中得到了瓦哥传递给我的信息；就像发现了圣杯一样！我阅读他专辑的歌词，这就是我的圣经。我开始大声读诵他的歌词，这就是我的赞美诗，我的真言，我的祷告文！ I had a Burzum poster on my bedroom wall. I lit candles underneath it, and in a small way, worshipped Varg. He was a teacher and a father figure to me. Now here you may mock me, but Varg had restored a small amount of hope in humanity for me. I loved him. It wasn’t sexual at this point, but I had a deep emotional connection with him. 在我卧室的墙上，有一张Burzum的大海报。我在下面点上了蜡烛，以一种卑微的浅薄的方式来崇拜我的神——瓦哥。他是我的导师，我的父神。我知道你可能会嘲笑我，觉得我是个傻b，但是瓦哥重塑了我身体里仅存的那一点儿人性。我爱他。在这里不是指性上的，但是我和他之间有强烈的深刻的精神纽带紧紧牵绊住。 So, he was in prison. I longed for his release. One night I woke up suddenly in hot sweats. I looked at my Burzum poster, maybe it was because I was tired or slightly drunk, but... it spoke to me. It said: ‘I am coming.’ I could not believe my ears, was I hearing things?What did this message mean? 我们都知道，他在监狱里。我一直在翘首以盼他重归天日。有一天晚上，我忽然满身热汗地惊醒。我看着我的Burzum大海报，或许是因为我太累了而且稍微有点醉了，但是……他对我说话了！他对我说：“我来了。”我简直不敢相信我的耳朵，我听到了什么？这意味着什么？ The next day I was reading Blackmetal.co.uk (the best and most gay-friendly Black Metal community). I was stunned, shocked – my heart skipped a beat: Varg had been released from prison! I looked up at my Burzum poster; I could swear it winked at me. 第二天，我浏览Blackmetal.co.uk （最好最基佬的黑金属社区）的时候，当时我就震惊了！看到这消息的时候我的心脏漏了一拍！瓦哥出狱了！我看着我的Burzum海报，我发誓，我看到他冲我眨了一下眼睛。 Burzum was to release a new album; his first in ten long years. It was like waiting for the Second Coming for me, in fact the wait almost killed me. Every day I grew weaker, I could not sleep. One day I was slightly delirious and became aroused by staring into the eyes of Varg on my poster. I was a little worried, but where was he harm? I masturbated for around 20 minutes before ejaculating over the poster. I was sweating, but it felt so good! I cheekily painted an inverted cross on Varg’s forehead with my semen... Well, I had always thought he was rather handsome. Burzum要发布新专辑了，他漫长十年来的第一张。对我来说，这简直有如基督再临一般，事实上这漫长的等待要折磨死我了。在这等待过程中我日益虚弱，夜不能寐。有一天我轻微地躁狂了，注视着海报上瓦哥的眼睛我兴奋了。我有一点犹豫担心，可是这又能肿么样呢╮(╯▽╰)╭？我对着他的海报打了20分钟的飞机。然后可耻地she了。我流了很多汗，但是太特么爽了。完了，我还无耻地用我的白色的粘稠液体（神马乃们懂的）在瓦哥的额头上画了个倒十字……然后，我觉得他更帅了…… Belus finally leaked (as did I, many times, over my Burzum poster!) I downloaded it as soon as I could. I had never been so frustrated by Rapidshare’s download limit! Belus最终还是流出了（我也“流出”了！很多次！在我的Burzum海报面前！）我以最快的速度下载下来，我从来没对Rapidshare的下载限制这么失望过！ Finally, I had those precious MP3s on my computer’s harddrive——my penis was also hard. I put my headphones around my ears, put the album into iTunes and clicked play and closed my eyes... 最终，我把这些珍贵的mp3存在了硬盘里，我的jj也是的石更的。我戴上了耳机，把专辑扔到我的iTunes里面，然后开始放，闭上了双眼……（然后乃们懂的！） ...Wow. I was overwhelmed by immense pleasure. The music washed over my brain in an awesome wave. But it was unlike his previous albums: it was... light and fluffy like a kitten. Previously Varg had been a grizzly bear, but now he was a cute, cuddly kitten. I ripped off my Krallice shirt and reached down and grabbed my erect cock. I began masturbating, and as the album climaxed – so did I! 哇嗷，我沉浸在无上的快感之中。他的音乐一波一波地冲击着我，在脑海中回荡。但是与早期的专辑不同，这一张Belus，很轻柔，像一只毛茸茸的小猫咪一样。早期的瓦哥更像灰熊，但是现在的他是一只可爱的让人想搂在怀里的小猫咪……我撩起了我的KralliceT恤，把手伸到了下面，握住了我昂首挺立的jj，然后开始打灰机，然后专辑放到了高潮部分——我也是！ It was minimalistic and artsy. It had a different aesthetic, it wasn’t 'evil', it was good; beautiful, not ugly. Listening to this masterpiece filled me with visions of kind-hearted liberals helping the poor Haitians, and of racial harmony... and of homo-eroticism. 这张专辑低调而牛逼。它是与众不同的美，它不邪恶，它是好的，美丽的，并不丑陋的。听着这张神作，我仿佛看到了那些心地善良的自由主义者在帮助着贫穷的海地人民，世界种族和谐发展神马的，以及基佬情欲。 I could no longer pretend otherwise. Belus was the final step in realizing my true identity: I was a homosexual. 我再也不能伪装下去了。Belus使我最终意识到这个真相：我是个基佬。 These days I am no longer a misanthrope; I love donating to charity and gay sex. I have thrown out my Cradle of Filth CDs, and now the music of ‘Belus’, Krallice, Wolves in the Throne Room, Paysage d'Hiver, Panopticon, Drudkh and Skagos form the soundtrack of my gay sex life. Every time my penis enters the anus of another man, or I swallow a load of spice hot Jizz I think of BELUS! 这些天来，我再也不是个厌世悲观主义者了，我爱上了慈善捐款和基情。我把污秽的摇篮的那些cd都撇了，现在只有Belus，Krallice，Wolves是我的挚爱，Paysage d'Hiver，Panopticon，Drudkh和Skagos组成了我基情四射生活的原声配乐。每一次我的jj插入另一个基佬的菊花的时候，亦或者是我咽下了一发热辣烫口的JY的时候，我都会想到这张瓦哥的神作——BELUS! 8解释了……= =|||| 颤抖吧 凡人们！！！ 仅供娱乐，拒绝认真帝。

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